Saturday, August 30, 2003

From The Proverb of the Day...
Prov 30:7-9

"Two things I ask of you, O LORD;
do not refuse me before I die:
Keep falsehood and lies far from me;
give me neither poverty nor riches,
but give me only my daily bread.
Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you
and say, 'Who is the LORD?'
Or I may become poor and steal,
and so dishonor the name of my God.
(from New International Version)

I think this is a great reminder in this day of so many material things. Even those who are 'poor' in this country can often be richer than a lot of people in a third world country. I lived in a Caribbean country in high school and there the people were content with so little. The true sign of contentment there, was that no matter how little they had, they always were willing to share. It was very humbling at times. They would invite us 'wealthy Americans' over for dinner and would give so much to us in regards to food, gifts, and hospitality. If you have never lived, visited, or gone on a mission tour to another country, I would highly recommend going as it changes your view of what is important. It also opens your heart up to viewing God’s heart in a new way.

There are 4 learning styles...and 4 personality styles. I have already gone into the learning styles and I will briefly go over the personality styles. I have had some people tell me they do not like to study this as it 'labels' people and they don't want to put people into a box. That’s fine for them, but I have learned so much about myself and my family through this study. Not to put people into a box, but to understand 'why' they do what they do. Gives me a lot more grace for others when I understand that various personalities do certain things. Most people are a combination of two or more but one will alway be more dominate.

1. Choleric-Extrovert; planner; leader; ‘I can do it better myself'; blunt; facts are more important that feelings; product orientated

2. Sanguine- Extrovert; people person; center of attention; out of sight-out of mind; spontaneous; caring in action; pleasing orientated

3. Melancholy- Introvert; perfectionist; artistic; detail oriented; moody; high expectations for self and others; process orientated

4. Phlegmatic- Introvert; flexible; disorganized; caring; peace-maker; quietly rebels; feeling orientated

I might go into them more later…

Have you ever tried to befriend someone...or just support them- moral support- and they just don't receive it? Maybe they don't come right out and say they don't want it or need it... but they just ignore that you have said or done things for them. It's an odd phenomenon for me to think about. In this day and age where so many feel unwanted, or friendless, and to know that they received such a gift of time or encouragement but that they would not want it or at least acknowledge the gift of support that was offered them is amazing to me. I know that on the giving end, the person should be doing for Jesus only and not expecting something in return. But it just causes me to wonder…..are those people so self assured, so complete that they have no need for encouragement…or are they struggling so deeply that the encouragement makes their struggle more apparent and they don’t like that….or are they just space-cadets!! Hmmm....

I was reading a post today and the man mentioned starting the day out with his Bible. And it brought to mind a present that someone once gave me. It is a pint jar with rice and walnuts in it. There is one cup of rice and 5 walnuts in it. There is a note tied to the rim that reads something to the effect: If you take one cup of rice and pour it into this jar and then try to put the walnuts in, they won't fit. But if you put the walnuts in first, then pour the rice in afterwards, the rice fits perfectly. The rice represents all the business of our lives, and the walnuts represent our time with God. If we try to get going in our day's business without God, it is very hard to fit Him in later. But if we start our day out with God first, all of our activities will fit in perfectly. "

God is a perfect gentleman...He will woo you to Himself, but will never force Himself in your life...

 

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Here is a Learning Style article and a Quiz to find your own style...



This has been a fun summer but I'm not sure what I accomplished. I've had a blast with blogging and blog-hopping. I have gotten into discussions that have stirred up my study habits from long ago. I have spent alot of time visiting with Morgan {hour long conversations as she drives to and from Taproot theater.}and blogging with her. I think alot of time has been spent just in life... doing dishes, clothes, watering the lawn, playing with kids and making meals. No major sewing projects, no vacations, no other milestones accomplished. But I have studied in areas that have been very challenging, I have repainted the dirty parts of my walls, I have found new blogging friends and new places to be encouraged. And I think I have grown closer to God due to all of this. Pretty fun stuff!

 

Thursday, August 21, 2003

~Eschatology~ A few definitions for words that came up in a recent discussion on eschatology at The Thinklings.

Agnostic: An agnostic thinks it impossible to know the truth in matters such as God and the future life with which Christianity and other religions are concerned. Or, if not impossible, at least impossible at the present time {http://www.arts.cuhk.edu.hk/humftp/E-text/Russell/agnostic.htm}

Amillennialist [ also termed nunc-millennialism or inaugurated millennialism ]: This group believes that the Kingdom of God was inaugurated at Christ's resurrection (hence the term "inaugurated millennialism") at which point he gained victory over both Satan and the Curse. Christ is even now reigning (hence the term "nunc-millennialism" - nunc means "now") at the right hand of the Father over His church. After this present age has ended, Christ will return and immediately usher the church into their eternal state after judging the wicked. The term "amillennialism" is actually a misnomer for it implies that Revelation 20:1-6 is ignored; in fact, the amillennialist's hermeneutic interprets it (and in fact, much of apocalyptic literature) non-literally.{http://www.blueletterbible.org/faq/mill.html#conc}amillenialists believe that there is not a literal 1,000 year reign of Christ, and no seven year great tribulation... that in general they believe Revelation is talking about the Roman Empire... Amillennialists read the millennium as symbolic also, but are typified by their denial of a present or future millennium -hence the term "A-millennialism". Amillennialism is the eschatological view that does not read the millennium spoken of in Revelation as literal or futuristic. Nearly all of the early church fathers were amillennialists of one sort or another.


Arminian: These five proposed, known as the Arminian Articlesanti-Calvinist corrections are summarized below:
1.God has decreed to save through Jesus Christ, out of the fallen and sinful human race, those foreknown by him who through the grace of the Holy Spirit believe in Christ; but God leaves in sin those foreseen, who are incorrigible and unbelieving (Election conditioned upon foreknowledge).

2. Christ's death was suffered on behalf of all men, but God elects for salvation only those who believe in Christ (Atonement is a universal moral influence).

3. Freedom of will is man's natural state, not a spiritual gift - and thus free will was not lost in the Fall. The grace of Christ works upon all men to influence them for good, but only those who freely choose to agree with grace by faith and repentance are given new spiritual power to make effectual the good they otherwise impotently intend (Free will and partial depravity).

4. The grace of God works for good in all men, and brings about newness of life through faith. But grace can be resisted even by the regenerate (Resistible grace).

5. Those who are incorporated into Christ by a true faith have power given them through the assisting grace of the Holy Spirit, sufficient to enable them to persevere in the faith. But it is possible for a believer to fall from grace. {http://www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arminianism}

Calvinist: Calvinism is often identified in the popular mind, with the "five points of the doctrines of grace", remembered by the English acronym: TULIP.

1. Total Depravity
All men are guilty in God's sight, and undeserving of life. [See Genesis 3, Romans 3:10-18]
2. Unconditional Election:
Election means "choice". God's choice from eternity, of who he will bring to himself, is not based on foreseen virtue, merit or faith in the persons he chooses but rather, is unconditionally grounded in his own mercy. [Romans 9, Ephesians 1:3-5]
3. Limited Atonement:
Also called "definite atonement" meaning that, Christ's death actually takes away the penalty of sins committed by those upon whom God has chosen to have mercy. It is "limited" then, to taking away the sins of the elect. [John 10:14-15 & 26-28]
4. Irresistible Grace:
The saving grace of God is not resistible. Those who obtain salvation do so because of the relentlessness of God's mercy. Men yield to grace, not finally because God found their consciences more tender or their faith more tenacious than other men. Rather, willingness and ability to do God's will, are evidence of God's faithfulness to save men from the power and the penalty of sin. [John 15:16]
5. Perseverance of the Saints:
Those whom God has called into communion with Himself through Christ, will continue in faith and will increase in faith and other gifts, until the end. [John 10:27-29] {http://www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Calvinism#Popular_summations_of_Calvinist_theology}
The Arminians believe, it is conditional; the Calvinists, that it is absolute. { http://www.arminian.us/}

Cessationist vs Non-cessationist
"Cessationism" is here defined as the thesis that some of the gifts (and their corresponding offices) described in the New Testament are ordinary and perpetual, while others were extraordinary and have accordingly been withdrawn from the life of the church with the close of the apostolic age. {http://pages.sbcglobal.net/dcrow/dcrc/articles/irons_cessation.html#Positive}
When considering the gifts of the Holy Spirit, the cessationist believes that certain gifts (typically those specifically mentioned in 1st Corinthians 12:7-11, generally identified as the miraculous gifts), ceased long ago, when the apostles died and Scripture was complete. The non-cessationist does not believe Scripture supports this point of view. The non-cessationist believes that God continues to gift believers and perform miraculous acts as He did in the days of the Bible. {http://www.hhbc.com/pdfs/Cessationism%20and%20Non-Cessationism.rtf}

Christian Zionism: "a movement, largely among Gentile Christians, supporting the right of the Jewish people to return to the Promised Land which has, of course, happened right before our eyes during this century" {http://www.cdn-friends-icej.ca/czionism.html}

Dispensationalist: According to dispensationalists, God has two distinct bodies of people with whom he is working: Israel and the church. There is a separate plan for each of these two peoples. Israel is said to be an earthly people, while the church represents a heavenly body. they teach that Jesus came to earth the first time fully intending to establish an earthly millennial kingdom with his chosen people, Israel. When the Jews rejected Christ's legitimate offer of the kingdom, say the dispensationalists, that kingdom was then postponed until the second coming of Christ. Then the same earthly Davidic kingdom which they are supposed to have refused will be established in the form of the millennium. During the millennium all the plans which were supposedly thwarted by the Jews at the first advent will be carried out in a literal manner. Because of Israel's rejection, the kingdom was postponed until the second advent of Christ. The millennial kingdom was offered, and postponed; but it will be instituted on earth after Christ's return. Since the kingdom was postponed it is a great error to attempt, as is so commonly done, to build a kingdom on the first advent of Christ as its basis, for, according to the Scriptures, the kingdom which was offered to Israel was rejected and is therefore delayed, to be realized only with the second advent of Christ.
The kingdom, because it was rejected and postponed, entered a mystery form (Matt 13) for the present age This mystery form of the kingdom has to do with the Church age when the kingdom of heaven is embodied in Christendom. God is now ruling on the earth insofar as the parables of the mystery of the kingdom of heaven require. In this mystery phase of the kingdom, good and evil mingle together and are to grow together until Christ returns.
The kingdom is to be reannounced by a Jewish remnant of 144,000 in final anticipation of Messiah's return. At the beginning of the great tribulation, which occurs immediately before the return of Christ, the Church will be raptured, taken out of the world, to be with Christ. An election of Israel is then sealed by God to proclaim throughout all the world the Gospel of the kingdom (Matt 24:14), i.e., that the Davidic kingdom, the kingdom of heaven, is about to be set up.
The millennial kingdom will then be realized as Christ returns in power and glory at the conclusion of the tribulation. Then Israel, which has been gathered from its dispersion through the earth to Messiah, will accept Him as such, and will enter the millennial kingdom as the covenanted people (George E. Ladd, Crucial Questions About the Kingdom of God, pp. 50,51). {http://www.graceonlinelibrary.org/full.asp?ID=178}

Dispensational Premillennialists hold that Christ will come before a seven-year period of intense tribulation to take His church (living and dead) into heaven. After this period of fulfillment of divine wrath, He shall then return to rule from a holy city (i.e., the New Jerusalem) over the earthly nations for one thousand years. After these thousand years, Satan, who was bound up during Christ's earthly reign, will be loosed to deceive the nations, gather an army of the deceived, and take up to battle against the Lord. This battle will end in both the judgment of the wicked and Satan and the entrance into the eternal state of glory by the righteous. This view is called premillenialism because it places the return of Christ before the millennium and it is called dispensational because it is founded in the doctrines of dispensationalism.

Fundamentalist: Self-described Fundamentalists frequently consider themselves "non-denominational", and indeed the movement is found in many denominations. They are typically pessimistic in their expectations for the future of the world (see dispensationalism), and committed to separation from what they believe to be theological, scientific and moral error. Although the modern movement formed within many of the established denominations, their tendency toward separation swelled the ranks of peripheral spinoff denominations, produced a multitude of new groups, and often made the choice of congregational independence appear to be the more faithful choice.
Christian fundamentalism is characterized as well by a more strict moral code compared to mainstream Protestantism, by which the fundamentalist believer seeks to distinguish himself from the world and identify himself with the community of the faithful. . The term Fundamentalist Christian, against the unheeded objections of nearly all to whom it is popularly applied, now describes any conservative adherent to Christianity, who clings to views of morality, sin, salvation through Christ alone, or other views based on the truth and authority of Scripture, which have been discarded in favor of more skeptical or pluralistic views, by the more widely respected authorities and scholars of religion. Notwithstanding this loose use of the terms, there is some awareness that Fundamentalism has a specific, historical meaning.{http://www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christian_fundamentalists}


Historical Premillennialists : place the return of Christ just before the millennium and just after a time of great apostasy and tribulation. After the millennium, Satan will be loosed and Gog and Magog will rise against the kingdom of God; this will be immediately followed by the final judgment. While similar in some respects to the dispensational variety (in that they hold to Christ's return being previous the establishment of a thousand-year earthly reign), historical premillennialism differs in significant ways (notably in their method of interpreting Scripture).
The postmillennialist believes that the millennium is an era (not a literal thousand years) during which Christ will reign over the earth, not from an literal and earthly throne, but through the gradual increase of the Gospel and its power to change lives. After this gradual Christianization of the world, Christ will return and immediately usher the church into their eternal state after judging the wicked. This is called postmillennialism because, by its view, Christ will return after the millennium.


Mid-trib: Mid-Tribulationism teaches that the church will enter the seven last years, but will be taken to be with Christ 3 1/2 years later at the mid-point. Typically, this removes the church from the "Great Tribulation" which they believe to be contained in the second half, but does put the church through some of the more tolerable conditions during the first half.

Parousia: "parousia" the Greek word for advent, coming, or presence. Strong's Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible, and it says, 'Advent (often, return; spec. of Christ to punish Jerusalem, or finally the wicked

Patristic: The study of the writings of the Fathers of the Church, has more commonly been known in England as "patristics", or, more commonly still, as "patristic study".

Postmillennialists: They see the millennium as symbolic of the "church age" progressing through time. They also have a pretty optimistic view of history, that the world is slowly getting better and better.

Post-trib: The 'post-trib' (abbreviation for 'post-tribulation') rapture view is the belief that Jesus will return visibly and bodily to raise the dead Christians and 'catch up' the living Christians at the end of a period of intense tribulation, called by Jesus "great tribulation" [Matt. 24:21]. The post-trib view is the only rapture view which sees only a single future coming of Jesus. Other rapture views, 'pre-trib,' 'mid-trib,' and 'pre-wrath,' all envision the rapture / resurrection as being prior to the second coming of Jesus by months or years. While all the other rapture views see the rapture as a means to take the Church to heaven for a brief period of time to escape God's wrath, the post-trib view sees the rapture merely as a mechanism to gather together all believers in a single location with Christ, to accompany Him in glory as He is revealed to the world. {http://www.geocities.com/~lasttrumpet/post-trib.html}


Preterist: A "full" preterist would interpret passages as Matthew 24 as referring to the destruction of Jerusalem in AD70 The term 'Preterist' is a somewhat obscure way of labeling those who believe that the Roman-Jewish War in the first century is to be associated with end-times Bible fulfillment. Based upon revelations throughout God's Word, all of the Bible's eschatology was to fing fulfillment in the latter half of the first century (Please read: The Significance of A.D. 70).
Those who believe (using Sproul's definition) that all eschatological events are in the past are { http://www.preteristarchive.com/Preterism/dennis-todd_p_01.html}


Pre-trib: Pre-Tribulationism is a futurist interpretation of end time events. It teaches that the church will be caught up to Christ sometime before the "tribulation" period (which they claim is Daniel's Seventieth Week and thus a seven-year period) begins. This removes the church from the earth and conveys it into Heaven while divine judgment is poured out on the unbelievers who remain. Typically pre-trib teaching includes the belief that there will continue to be people saved who were left behind, many who are converted by the preaching of the 144,000 "witnesses" of Rev. ch 7. These believers are the "tribulation saints" who must wait until Christ returns a second (third?) time to receive their eternal inheritance, although most will be martyred by then. Upon Christ's return with the church, a 1,000-year period of earthly rule by Christ will begin (pre- millenialism). {http://www.souldevice.org/pretrib.html}

Pre-Wrath: "Pre-Wrath" is a view that has espoused in such books as Van Kampen's "The Sign" - it is basically a view that states that Christians will go through the great tribulation, but will be raptured prior to the descending of God's wrath very shortly before Christ's return. Pre-wrathers assert that Christ's parousia will occur after the great tribulation has started, but not before it ends. But they do not place it smack-dab halfway through as normal midtribbers do. In fact, most prewrathers are fairly agnostic about the actual timing in terms of where within the 7 years. But they do say it will be after the 4th seal is broken

Reformed: The Reformed faith finds its entire authority in the teaching of the Word of God. The Bible is the only infallible rule of what we are to believe and how we are to live. Continuing charismatic revelations, prophecies, or unknown tongues are no longer needed because God has spoken his final and all-sufficient word with the completion of the canon of Holy Scripture. The Bible and the Bible alone--that is our confession.{http://www.opc.org/what_is/Reformed_Part1.html}{This was the hardest one to pinpoint as there are as many 'reformed' beliefs as there are churches... so this definition may be very limited}

Zionism:Zionism, the national movement for the return of the Jewish people to their homeland and the resumption of Jewish sovereignty in the Land of Israel, advocated, from its inception, tangible as well as spiritual aims. Jews of all persuasions, left and right, religious and secular, joined to form the Zionist movement and worked together toward these goals. Disagreements led to rifts, but ultimately, the common goal of a Jewish state in its ancient homeland was attained. The term "Zionism" was coined in 1893 by Nathan Birnbaum. {http://www.us-israel.org/jsource/Zionism/zionism.html}




 

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

Many of my friends are getting ready to get school rolling again; home-schooling that is. I haven't started putting anything together yet. I have decided to enjoy the summer as much as the kids. I have spent many summers pouring over catalogs, the internet and the computer trying to put together a great program for the kids. But since I am great at planning and making charts but not on sticking with any program for any length of time... by January we were so off the great plan I had put together it wasn't funny.
Every year I would try again and decide that this year we would stay 'on track'. I bought several full curriculum packages with lesson plans and all. They were great but I could never stay on the schedule. I always had great intentions but I never finished a year the same way I started it...until last year. I didn't have a plan going in...and I stayed on that 'basic plan' the whole year! We read whatever we wanted (have lot of books from the whole curriculum program) and learned about history and science by the books we wanted to read. The kids did a lot of math and some writing but we didn't finish any workbooks.
I used to worry that if I didn't stick to a strict schedule and plan that the kids would end up way behind. They aren't! The older kids rank in the college level on most of their yearly tests and the little ones are learning everything that is necessary for 1st and 2nd grades. The older two boys worked with Jim a lot this year and learned how to remodel a bathroom and how to tile a floor. They went on a 50 mile hike through the Olympic Mountains and progressed in their music well enough to be on our church's worship team. And, they all still love to learn. Jesse wasn't assigned it, but he wrote up a huge 10+ page article on all the instruments in an orchestra. And Cory taught himself how to make animation on a flash program. They both memorized most of John for a quizzing team. We don't have a time schedule or a lesson schedule but a lot seems to get done during the year without it. And I get to enjoy my summer!!
I have had a fear in the back of my mind that by the time they got into college they would have a hard time adjusting to a schedule...I don't think that will be a problem watching Morgan take off. Since they have taught themselves to learn, they will fit right in with college where no one is sitting over you telling you to study. {I don't think I can write this up as a 'how-to' for home-schooling... I don't think it would go over real well.} One of these days I will go down to the store and pick out some math books and maybe a new book or two. But not yet... the sun is still shinning and in Washington that is a reason to be in it!

 

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

This song always reminds me to take God out of the box I put Him in...

Be Magnified Lyrics~

I have made You too small in my eyes
O Lord, forgive me;
And I have believed in a lie
That You were unable to help me.
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes and with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be mag - nified.
CHORUS:

Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
O Lord, be mag - nified.


I have leaned on the wisdom of men
O Lord, forgive me;
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy.
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be magnified.

CHORUS:

Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
O Lord, be mag - nified.

 

Sunday, August 17, 2003

I have always loved school as far back as I can remember. I wasn't an A+ student but I enjoyed the challenge of learning. Maybe that's why I went into teaching . . . Maybe that's why I have enjoyed homeschooling my kids. But I have not been so challenged to think in a long time as I have by a few blogs that I love. And it's not a challenge that makes me feel insecure in what I believe but in making me not take what I believe for granted; to push myself into areas that go beyond my comfort zone. I've been at some pretty scholarly churches in the past and ours now has some real strong teachers. But the teaching is only for 40 minutes a week and not really geared for study during the week. So I have been totally enjoying delving into this new blogging world. Especially since I have found such great writers to enjoy reading.

These guys never cease to challenge me. I am now going to write up some definitions of Eschatology. I would love to read to understand what they are talking about but so many of the words are new to me. So come back in a few days for a updated list of definitions. I am not going to try and put forth any opinions on any of these at the present.

 

Friday, August 15, 2003

Not as funny as the 'star-wars' kid but pretty good for starters! Good Job, Cory!

Opps!


Battle with himself!

and speaking of it... Here's the 'starwars kid--reloaded!' new clip of him.

Starwars Kid--Reloaded!


 

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

Ministry...the word evokes images of counseling and prayer; of outward signs of works and of activities that change lives dramatically. Some feel like it is the leadership at church or the work with tribes across the ocean. But years ago God showed me that there was a large group of people in a specific ministry called The Quiet Ones of which I’m a member. He was reminding me of it this week. In a world that praises the beautiful and strong; that makes heroes of those who are in the limelight; of a Christian community that glorifies those who stand out and do the ‘wonders and miracles’ it seems hard to fit in when your ministry is behind the scenes. But God showed me that these Quiet Ones are the people that are the ones who make dramatic differences in lives. They are the listeners, the stay-at-home parents, the prayer warriors, and the servants who work without thanks. No one may ever see his or her work except God. But the lives they touch will always be changed because what they do is immensely important.
I forget this every once in a while when I see others doing some great work for the kingdom out in front of everyone. They get praise and rewards and it seems like that is the Great and Important work. Don’t misunderstand me.. What they do is important but it is not my ministry. And if I try to step into shoes that aren’t made for me, my walk will be off. I have been shown specifically that for this time in my life, quietly doing what God has given me is all I need to do to please Him. Specifically, raising seven kids to be on fire for Him is my work. And if I do that well, it is more than many ‘louder’ witnesses can boast.
But it takes swallowing my pride that wants to be seen and praised. It takes realizing that the mundane of life is just as important to walk right with God in as the biggest ministry that I can fathom. It takes realizing that the fruit won’t be seen for some years.
The irony of this is that the fruit of what I have been working faithfully on for the last 17 years is finally showing in my oldest child whose walk with God is dramatic and affects lives around her. But that same fruit is what causes me to doubt my work. I wonder if I should be doing more and affecting more lives like I see God do through her. But just as I was wondering this He quietly said to me, “She is your ministry and you are doing well. Just continue on.” God always stops me in my tracks…

 

Monday, August 11, 2003

I got flamed! What a riot! It wasn't even at my main blog..just a side one I started to list things that I think are great. It wasn't even overly about Christian things. But someone found it and decided I was brainwashed because I believe Jesus was/is a real person. That was the only coherent sentence he made. I laughed so hard. I’m glad that if someone is going to go to the trouble of flaming me that at least they make me laugh! I thought I was in my own little world where only a few people came into… but now ‘Brent” has added his footstep in. I guess apart from the laugh and wonder at why he chose that blog rather than my article blog where there is a lot more ‘brainwashing’, there is a slight feeling of slime. Someone invaded my space and left slime smeared as he went... My opinion on blogging flame...it is only done by cowards. I've read another's blog where the flames got pretty hot evidently. The blogger deleted all of the posts but the effect was still same..slime from a coward. People feel free to be cruel/ fake/ onesided when they can hide behind an anonymous monitor. What a breath of fresh air when you find people who are real.

 

Saturday, August 09, 2003

I’m playing with a few ideas in my head that I will have to write down to see where they go. This is a continuation of the issue of language but on another tack. In Jared’s site he brought up that Jonathan had this ‘debate’ going on about language. A few people popped over there to read and then came back to Jared’s to comment. It was quite the lively discussion and they did a pretty fair job of sticking to the subject and not resorting to ‘name-calling’ type debating. But a few comments were made that I have heard here and there as a position for Christians to do or not to do something.
”The overriding concern I have is offense to people (which can, I suppose, result in a derivative offense to God, if our words make us appear hypocritical and thus hurt our witness.” This statement was said to show why Christians shouldn’t use foul words. My only thought on this is that non-Christians are not our judge. Only God is our judge and there may be times that we are lead to do or say something that may go against what non-Christians think we should do. Paul, Peter and others went against their government to follow a higher law of witnessing Jesus’ name, some feel lead to smuggle Bibles, some feel lead to ‘lie’ to hide persecuted Christians in other countries. Granted, using foul words can’t usually be put into these ‘higher’ law issues but the concept that we always have to do things or not do things so as not to be judged by others seems to put us into the category of men pleasers and not God pleasers. If I walk so as my conscience is clear before God, then the Holy Spirit will be the aroma that the non-Christian is drawn to, not my individual actions. I’m sure others could shoot holes in this explanation because I don’t think that I am explaining it well enough. My focus is on pleasing God and not man. When we put the heavy yoke on one another to perform for the non-Christian, then the fuel for their fire on attacking us is unending. There will always be something each of us do that some non-Chrisitan will be 'offended' at. Maybe one will refrain from foul words, but then feel it's ok to go over the speed limit. There will always be critics of our actions. This is evident in that they are 'offended' by the 'good' that we do. We defend our right to say 'In God We Trust', or to say the Pledge of Alligence, or to protect the unborn. They will put a yoke on us too heavy to carry if we play for their approval. We need only to play for an audience of ONE.

 

Friday, August 08, 2003

During my junior year in High School was the first time I 'heard' God's voice so clearly it felt like He was actually in my room. I was living in the Dominican Republic (same island as Haiti) and most of my friends had moved to the states. I was feeling very lonely and on this day my closest friend told me he couldn’t be my friend anymore if I wasn’t going to date him. At the time this was quite upsetting. I am almost always a positive person so the thoughts that crossed my mind seemed out of place. I sat there wondering what the point of living was if I didn’t have any friends left. As soon as the thought crossed my mind another thought came and it was so clear and definitely not of my own making. ‘Because I live, you can face tomorrow.’ I knew it was the lines to the famous hymn but I was so stunned by the force of those words that I had to sit down. I sat there pondering how many things in life could go wrong and yet because Jesus lives life was still worth living..
The next time was more of an experience… some people were praying over me and I started shaking so hard they had to let me lie on the floor. I am not a holy-roller so this experience was totally out of my league to explain. But God explained it to me a few weeks later.. I had my wisdom teeth out and they had to give me a heavy dose of Novocain. I started shaking all over.. very similar to the effect of the prayers the week before. I stopped the nurse and asked her why I was shaking so badly and she said that it was the affect of Novocain on the system. Since they were going to be doing a small operation of sorts they had to numb me up well. So on the way home I was talking to God and mulitating on why the two experiences were similar. This was the next time that I ‘heard’ God’s voice. So clearly I heard Him say, “The reason you were shaking before is because I gave you spiritual Novocain so I could operate on your heart.” Now He never did tell me what he did to my heart but I do know that after that I had a total different view of worship so maybe that was it.
I have a couple of other times that I will bring up later but as it is almost midnight I will say ‘adios’.
If you have heard God’s small, still voice but clear as if He were standing by you…post it in my comment box! I’d like to hear about it!

 

Thursday, August 07, 2003

Another realization lately that is quite earth shaking! It kinda relates to my last post and is another way God showed me my heart in a very humorous way really. Lately, Morgan and I have been reading various blogs together, mostly around a group of young adults at caleb's university. Most of them were ok, some were questionable and a couple we just didn't go to. Then God showed us one of the guys so that we realized it was the "Sam" we had been praying for since the spring. We read down through his posts and saw the entire struggle that he had been going through and were amazed and privileged that God been having us pray for him during that time to the present. And the harsh language didn't seem to be a problem anymore because we saw past the words and hurt to his heart.
The next blog made us both wince because of the language and seemingly bad attitude of the guy. But I did go there a few times because it turned out to be a friend of caleb's and we wanted to see who he had hung out with this last year. Inevitably I would end up laughing at most of his posts and disturbed links of the day. And the more I read his posts the more a humorous thought occurred to me. God does have a great sense of humor and He loves to use it on me. So many of the posts were funny because they were exactly what Jim would rant about. Many times I would get up in the morning and Jim would be upset at some news article or something someone did and would go on and on about how stupid this or that was etc. I have learned to just let him vent and tell me all the details. He loves it! Then later I would sit to read a few blogs and would end up at Cynic's blog and he would be ranting about the exact thing! Of course he might be using a few choice words that Jim wouldn't use only because he tries to be slightly more controlled about his language. So Morgan and I have been nicknaming Jim "the cynic" and he doesn't even know why! I made a bet with Morgan that Jim would love the lastest link from this guys blog. I showed Jim the link to Fred on Everything... Jim absolutely loved it! Says he has to go back and read all of the archives now.. Same thing Scholl said. It was quite enlightening and humorous of God to show me my wrong judgments of others; showing me that my dear husband was so similar to this guy. I figured Joshua was really walking by his own rules and not God's and now I can see him in a different light because I know Jim is in God but yet is so identical to Joshua. They both might be alittle rough around the edges but I know that God is number one in Jim's life and it gives me tons more grace to let God work in these other guys lives that I once judged. Self righteousness is so much worse than some words that are neither here nor there in light of eternity. Plus anyone that can make me laugh can't be all that bad!

Sometimes I think that there's not a whole lot more of life stuff that I have to learn and then God hits me straight on the head with a huge revelation. He just revealed to me that I have been walking around with some huge self-righteous judgments against different people. I thought I was justified in my thought process but I know a little more now that God is so much bigger than my box I put people in. This specific judgment was about the sincerity of some people’s faith or walk with God in relationship to how they talked. The cleaner their speech, the more I judged them right with God. But I think I was looking more on the outward appearance rather than on the heart like God does.
Granted, I guess I still look at clean speech as a good discipline of life and a sign that the person is conscientious of his walk in front of others. But I am now seeing that I was completely writing off those who didn’t have the same standards that I do.
Wilson’s ‘debate’ on language started me thinking about what the values of words really are and what they aren’t. Then, just stepping into the lives of a few young adults to see their lives, struggles, faith in God and their desire to follow Him and also seeing that words they use weren’t indicative of where they really stood with God. Sometimes it seems more of a mask so that others really can’t see that they want to walk with God. Sometimes I can see where they have come from and their words are the least of their problems in life. They are trying to get past their childhood and walk with God in the very best way they can and the foul words seem to be the only defense they have against the world they still don’t trust.
So my heart has softened towards these young people and I hardly hear the words anymore. I just see people that God loves and pray that He shows me how to reach them in a way that they can see Him more.

 

Friday, August 01, 2003

I can't believe Jim was able to trick me.. of course he had to lie like a rug to do it.. but he succeeded nonetheless. It was our 21st wedding anniversary. He wanted to take me out for the day so we had Morgan stay home with the little ones. He was acting alittle suspicious so I told Morgan that I suspected he was going to take me out to dinner or something. She kind of smiled but said nothing. So we left around 1 and he was kind of pushy to get going but said it was because he was hungry and hadn't had lunch yet. So we left and went to town. He asked me where I wanted to eat because he hadn't had time to make reservations. Yea right, I thought! He suggested we go look around for couches first since we needed a new one (great date material). We looked around at some and didn't find any that we both liked. During the time we were looking Morgan called. Jim told me to write a name and number down. He started talking to Morgan about a Bid that he is suppose to go on tonight. The guy didn't leave a number and he wants Jim out there by 5:00 tonight because he has to leave on a business trip in the morning. This was a $25,000 bid that Jim had told me about the week before. So he tells me that since he has no way of getting a hold of this guy and that he doesn't want to blow this deal that we'd better go check out what the guy wants. I figure no big deal. We can look fast and then still come back for dinner. I was such a good sport! He decides that we can go walk through the mall and get some jelly-bellies and such. He is still acting weird so I figure that something must be up at the mall..maybe he's buying me some jewlery..or something. We walk around for an hour or so just visiting and having a nice time. He thinks that we should get out to the Bid now so that we have enough time to get back for dinner. I guess that 'dinner' is the surprise since he didn't have time for reservations...it probably is a really nice restaurant. He asks me what movie I'd like to go to as we pass the movie house. I say we can figure that out later. I need to go to Target and he says we will on our way back into town. This is what we do on dates after 20 some years! Still have fun though!
So we drive way out somewhere to this guy's house. He lives on Hood Canal so we have to drive some distance to get there. We find his driveway and there is a sign that says 'Wilcocks home, no visitors unless invited'. I ask if this guy is really a stuck up rich person or what! He has a long paved driveway. I went on and on about his snobbery and that this job better be worth this since we have to go out here on our anniversary! This driveway was very long! When we pull up to his house a man is coming around the yard from the side and I ask if this is the man. Jim says no that it must be the gardener. He comes up and tells us to pull over to the curb more and we can just stay parked there. I mention that he acts like a valet parker. There is a green awning over the steps and front door. I whisper that this looks like a motel entrance. What's the deal with these people? The gardener opens the door for us and asks if we want to be shown around. I think, NO, just show us the bid so we can get back to town for the dinner I am waiting for. He walks us through the living room and pointing things out and where the bathrooms are etc. Yak yak yak...he walks us into this little eating area where there are several little tables. I am still being really dense. A lady comes out of a kitchen and shakes our hands and starts to tell us that there is wine and cheese on the terrace and that we can help ourselves. The light is slowly starting to turn on...she then asks us when we would like to have breakfast? Jim says anytime after 8. My mouth drops open with enlightenment! I slug him and call him a twit! Overnight at a bed and breakfast! What a treat! He has never tricked me like that before. I am way too suspicious. He had the older kids in on it and his mom. His mom was coming over to watch the kids so that's why we had to leave so quickly. When he called Morgan at the couch store he was just talking to himself and making up the whole conversation. He had arranged for her to call and then he just took it and ran with it. He had even snuck some clothes for us under the back seat. So we had wine and cheese, and then a steak dinner. Sat outside and watched the Hood Canal and the sunset. Walked around, read an old book in the library together and just had some good old fashion fun since this was the first time in years that we had gone away without the kids! I forgave him for lying to me! It was great! He'll never be able to get away with it again!

   

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